OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD!!!

I was talking with my family now on Skyyyype! Can't believe,can't believe,can't believe... The whole hour I was feeling like I'm already in Germany just sitting near and speaking with them! My parents like them a looot.. Hope that my hosts like my falimy too... really can't wait! I'm ready to go to Moscow and sit in the airplane and flyyy... Yeah, exactly, I'm like flying nooow..like a bird in the clean sky!
My parents are happy, I'm happy, my hosts happy, THE WHOLE WORLD IS HAPPY, YEYYYY =)

Ooow...

My family is writing to me and I'm crying. Crying cuz I'll see them 2 months later when I'm ready to see and be with them right now! I've never met such kind and amazing people before... They are taking my breath away and I feel like they are near me and now somebody will knock in my room-door!! 


(crying)

All that I have is a hope...

Still can't believe in her words.. It's just impossible! I don't want it to be as she said, no - no - no! Everybody will be in Germany at September 10th and only 3 of us will be there I don't know when (as AFS Russia says - after September as the earliest time to visit German Consulate is September 29 + about 20 days to make a visa.)
And when we will be in Germany?! At the beginning of November?! NO!!! It's unfair! We are the same exchange students as everybody around and most part of them are already in their countries! Yes, I don't wanna waste my year (2010-2011) when I struggled for this chance to live for one year in my favourite country in the host family and new friends! I'm still struggling and I won't give up , but I just wanna say - IT'S TOO MUCH! I'M FED UP! HOW COULD IT BE EVEN POSSIBLE, TO BE LATE FOR 1,5-2 MONTHS? I won't let somebody break my dream... The whole year was just like a hell, and I tried a lot, and still trying as I'm learning and passing my 10th grade exams.
don't want all my efforts be wasted... I won this chance. will never lose it!

Familyyy

Yes, it's the 26th of August and yes, I still don't have German visa... But yesterday AFS Germany found a host family for me! I still can't belive in it... I have an amazing family! They are all so nice...
And now I've just noticed that I saw a dream about my family more tham 1 month ago and wrote about it here in my blog, title Sweet Dreams .. I even never had a thought that my dream about host falimy will come true.. Or I'm just a predictor of future :D

Well, now I'm so happy that I even can't describe it in words , but can draw my emotions! ==========>


^_^ 

Have no mood

Almost 1 month left till my trip to Germany and I still don't have my host family, and I can't get a visa because of it! So it means that I need to go to Moskow again to visit German Consulate...
also I need to pass some subjects. It's summer time, so I even don't wanna think of it, but I have no choice...